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Are you going to HEAL or continue to HURT?

Hey Beautiful Ladies,

Ok so at the beginning of 2012 I stated that my desire for the New Year was to embrace LOVE because I felt I was ready to give and receive it.  (Sigh)!!!  So love came and went in this year and I hated to think or even say it but I felt as if I had grown an immunity to hurt and that it was just something I had just grown use too.  The last relationship I was in I had really let my guard down and embraced this person in a way that I hoped and prayed he would eventually be my Hubby but as time progressed things moved extremely fast and there really was no room to really get to the heart of the person or a chance for them to get to the heart of me.  The Lord has a way of removing things that he may not have joined together.  When the breakup had happened I realized that neither of us had ever dealt with our past hurts so there really was no room to fully love one another in a way in which we desired to be loved. 

And as I reflected on this I thought about the story of RUTH.  I think people get so caught up in the fact that she met and married BOAZ.   But before that Ruth had to grieve the loss of her husband before she could even embrace a new love.  She had to become whole again.  This is why she drew near to her Mother-in- law Naomi so that she could help her through and when the time had come Naomi instructed Ruth exactly what to do so that Boaz would know that she was interested in him.  I take this story now and apply it in a way that once a love relationship has ended that we must not be so swift to jump into another relationship in hopes that it will fill the void of your past love but rather deal with, process and grieve the loss of the love you once had.  If not you will just end up giving the next person the lesser of you instead of the greater.  That person will have to pay for the things that the last person may have done to you.  All because you failed to take out the adequate amount of time to heal.  But in time as you get busy doing your work for the Lord and get to know more about yourself that is when your Boaz will present himself.  The key is to keep busy, growing and flowing in the will of God and the plan he has for your life.  I am confident that if I get myself back grounded in the word of God, church and a deeper relationship with Christ then one day my king will truly come.  So with that being said im going to just continue to "Get My Life" and proclaim that Worth It, I Am. 

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