Worth it, i am.

Merry Christmas Ladies, It is on this day that I reflect on my Grandmother.  Her memory lives on even more during this season and seems to hurt all the more with her not being here.  In this blog I have wrote an Ode to my Gran-Ma-Ma (thats the name I would call her). I remember the days of being in the country and spending those special moments with you. I remember as a Little Girl wanting to duplicate everything you did from pulling up a chair to the sink to help you wash the dishes and as time went on and I grew bigger that became my chore.  I hated doing it then, lol but would do anything for you!!! I remember the times you would sit me down to comb my hair and I would get up with more grease on my forehead than in my hair.  lol I remember the nights when it would be time for bed and I'd nestle my little body close up under you as I would suck my thumb and play with your ear.  You did not like it but you still allowed me to do it because you knew it brought me comfort.

Hey Ladies, I know my blogs have been few and far between but I had to let time have its way and different situations inspire me to write something of substance and meaning.  I'm sure after this blog I will step on a few toes but one thing I'm not going to do is apologize for being REAL yall already know transparency is my middle name so here goes.   (P lease cue the music before starting to read)   I know some of you maybe thrown off by my title and thinking I have blown a gasket or lost my mind because my blogs are blogs to inspire and uplift but don't get it twisted its still going to do just that except this time I'm coming woman to woman and shooting straight from the hip .  "You Wonda Y They Call You Bitch," is inspired by all those young ladies/ women that feel its ok to call each other by this name but let a man call them one all Hell breaks lose.  Whatever happened to respecting yourself and not answering to something that carri

Hello Beautiful Women,  I’m back at it again and this time I must address us ladies and the fact that I feel we need or must have validation from the opposite sex. My heartaches for us because it’s so often we turn down our gifts, dreams, vision, destiny due to the distraction of that in which we call men. I’m speaking from a very personal place as I write this because a few months back I was on my celibacy kick and trying to be pleasing in God’s eyes. I was focused, working on my non-profit, planning events, my makeup was doing well, I had appointments booked left and right but then the distraction came. In the midst of being busy I longed for companionship and here he came; looking like a Fine, Tall glass of water unlike anyone I had talked too. Shoot he was light skin and typically I go for more of the chocolate, bald head but this man was BEAUTIFUL to me. Lol and instantly the day we met where I should have took heed out the gate to things but I ultimately got caught up in all

Good Afternoon LADIES, How are we? I hope each of you is doing Amazing as for me I had to take a moment and blog about something that has been on my mind for the last month or so. (Listen to music while reading) Here goes: I think Jill Scott said it best in the song, “ When I Wake Up ” in the opening she says “ too much on my mind ,” is exactly what I have had going on. So for the last month I have felt the pressure of life and wanting to leave AR so bad. I feel that it is so slow and no room for real progression. Really I ultimately miss living in California and I long to be back there. It’s been so unsettling that it almost makes me want to pull out the little spackle of hair that sits upon my head. I try to get busy doing things to find fulfillment or pleasure but even those things only give me the temporary excitement. I often have to ask myself the question really what is it that I’m wanting or feeling that I am missing in life. And the only thing I can think of is true happi

Hey Beautiful Ladies, Ok so at the beginning of 2012 I stated that my desire for the New Year was to embrace LOVE because I felt I was ready to give and receive it.   ( Sigh)!!!  So love came and went in this year and I hated to think or even say it but I felt as if I had grown an immunity to hurt and that it was just something I had just grown use too.   The last relationship I was in I had really let my guard down and embraced this person in a way that I hoped and prayed he would eventually be my Hubby but as time progressed things moved extremely fast and there really was no room to really get to the heart of the person or a chance for them to get to the heart of me.   The Lord has a way of removing things that he may not have joined together.   When the breakup had happened I realized that neither of us had ever dealt with our past hurts so there really was no room to fully love one another in a way in which we desired to be loved.   And as I reflected on this I thought abo

  Well Hello Ladies, I know, I know it has been forever since I have posted anything.   Honestly I actually lost my motivation to write for a while.   You know when life deals you a certain hand it often times can be hard to bounce back to what you use to do but I can now gladly say that I am back. So I will start this blog by saying is it just me or does it seem that life knocks you down and you feel there’s no way to get back up.   The uncertainties of what’s going on, what am I doing wrong.   That makes it seem that life is almost impossible to live so I ask what do you do.   Do you just give up, throw in the towel and just say this is as good as it gets.   NO , you build up your faith, push yourself to keep moving, for it’s only a bump in the road and life won’t always be chaotic.   I’m writing this because life for me in the past year had been full of ups and downs, topsy-turvy and just no hope or no since of peace was in sight.   Since October of 2011 when the time cam